Something wrong is happening to me...

Salam

After just a trouble came knock me down...I think i just have started another problem...I always want to pick up fights with everybody..friends...family so far not yet..

After the incidents that really make my mind spinning around couldn't control my temper..I always want to pick up fights with anybody..name it..to a friend who I chat with to a person next to me...I don't know why...Its just happen just now with a friend of mine whom i chatted with...I guess maybe...People always get emotional with me of what I'm doing..but where is my emotional take place when somebody hurt me?..

I'm not the kind of guy who easily picking up a fight without someone wants to hurt my feeling....When they were upset..in the end its me the one is guilty and I'm the one who try to keep them calm...

Who calm me down when I was emotionally hurt?..NO one try to calm me down..I dealt this all alone...yet people who I calm them still want to sulking with me...I don't know why this is happening?....I don't know who is my priority?...Me or somebody else...I guess that my soft spot is..Itend to calm people rather than to calm my self..

Enough all of this..By this moment..somebody picking up a fight with me..they gonna get it...AND I don't give a damn about it anymore!!!

People tend to sulk with me...so what??...I'm not going to be your shoulder anymore...All of this is pure madness..AND I'm staying out of it!...

Ya Allah..I pray for peacefulness and do calm my heart...grant me strength to move on to your journey that You only know for me whats in the front and whats at the back of me...O Allah..i ask for Your forgiveness of the sins that I have made..O Allah...grant my wishes and made me turn to be a Better Muslim for ever as I may lived...Amin



Ikhwan Huzir want some peace...


Salam